我

一片黑漆漆的。

我，害怕了....
我，惊慌了....
我，哭了...

眼前的我，看不见了....

看不见美好事物 ....
看不见人们的心思 ....
看不见未来 ....

滴答滴答的。

我， 疲惫了....
我， 厌倦了....
我， 哭了....

眼前的我，不想了....

不想未来 ....
不想烦恼 ....
不想现在 ....

我，讨厌我自己了 ....
我，出尔反尔了 ....
我，后悔了。

一切太晚了。

Passenger..

I can choose either to be a victim of the world or an adventurer in search of treasure.

Its all a question of how I view my life.

My life there, need a turn to be a newish. 

Papers only the history now. 

Regretful?

yes?

Now I'll not listen to reason of myself.

Reason always means what someone else has got to say.

Just let it only one of the passenger of many. 

The Name I loved (Dub)

My favorite song! =)

My hands become cold
The memory of love coldly draws near
It becomes painful
I don't want to be unfair to you any longer

Knowing that I can't love you
Who is close to me
Who can't look at me
It's too hard to wait
I can't stand it anymore
Since it won't be achievable

That name I loved
Became too distant as I went out to call it
I now write that name down
I'm on the verge of tears
I want to hide within myself
Remember that day now
Where all I could do was love you
 Because an unachievable love is still love

The feeling of love
That you can't do alone comes to me
The longings that I can't even start only get bigger
Only your scent is left
In the cold, corner of my heart

That name I loved
Became too distant as I went out to call it
I now write that name down
I'm on the verge of tears
I want to hide within myself
Remember that day now
Where all I could do was love you
Because an unachievable love is still love

Turn back a thousand times
To the moment we first went to that point
I'll take away everything
From that one corner of my heart

The name I loved
Became too distant as I went out to call it
I now write that name down
I'm on the verge of tears
I want to hide within myself
Remember that day now
Where all I could do was love you
Because a love that can't grow is still love

(That name I loved
Became too distant as I went out to call it)

(Remember that day now
Where all I could do was love you)

(That name I loved
Became too distant as I went out to call it)

shhh...

I had dreams ,fantasy dreams!
Is recently, cant get enough for that!
maknae and top. Dubu tonight? XD
Hope having it tonight again! c(^.^)b

hmm..

hmmm..recently review my posts.. 
I just made people understood me!
Hah! i cant believe that.. 
Tsk..tsk.my bad..


ps: feel disgust.. you guys know what i mean ^^

STPM

IC check!

Exam passport check!

pencil case check!

brain...hmmm...uncheck! =D

Tomorrow we gonna start our War..
Get a position! Roger? roger?
First target.. General Paper 2..
We gonna shoot it down!

Good Luck my buddies~! Don't lose in this battle!
You all have all my wishes!

Aza aza Hwaiting~!!!!

Timing

Left within 5 days to my 1st paper GP.
I am doing the preparation for the papers..

But at this second, this moment nothing else bothering me except the Pathogen!

I am been underattacked!
Fire in the hole! ..Boom!
I : Covering me!
I : I need backup! I need backup!
Immune system : Negative! Negative!

 - Defeat -

End up..cough and fever..

等待。。。

The Photos

Old photos..there were memories.

The photos remind me. There the happiness where i can found, at the same place i found sadness too. Always hoping everything doesn't change much , hoping everything work as the past. The facts, everyone changed, i changed, the world is changing. 

No matter how hard i hope, it never come true. 

The past we used to talk a lot, smiles a lot, but now we getting far apart. The time changes us...

Trying to smile one to feel better...

A day was passed, am still doing nothing.............. 

Now i am running out of time! (yelling)

gastric, migraine, gum pain! all in one now..

how exhausted my body is recently, absent for school 3 days a week (sigh).

some for sure said am study very hard at home! i am not..repeat...i really not.

morning, noon, evening study mood not at all. when comes in midnight, yea~it comes but body doesn't want to work with me.

sigh..sometimes i hate myself being this. putting my studies aside instead doing the wasting time stuffs.

my determination likes play hide and seek with me. no joke. two voices keep playing in my mind. (study now! no! i don want it, after while i will going for it. No, you wont, just wake up for that place and take ur book study! I said i don want it! ) it keep play and play in my minds. 

(slapping) wake up wake up! wake up........wake.....up..........wa....ke.....up

ps: through this i know one day i'm going insane~~~~

dream

A dream was puzzle me for days.

what kind of dream i had?

scary? yes for certain view.

lovely?  yes in my dream.

nervous? yes for a moment.

Thought my eraser had rub the memories apart of that.

Yet he suddenly pop out in my dream. never thought about that, i swear.

anyway just a dream, it never will come true. don't be silly gal( 바보 )

Pretending

Feeling pain for not worth trusted.

own problem?

I guess yes.

Review the changes of me recently

My personality getting worse and worst?

I guess yes.

The effection,

i could bare no matter how worse is it, because i am who am i

don't make it seems like the end of the world, everything gonna be alright if YOU try harder. 

persuading and comfort myself  failed. I know there always a contradiction with my words and actions.  

pretending everything will be ok but look back i'm failed to be........... 

I...

The moment  You...

Neither let me get close to You nor let me know what is in your mind..

I always be alone.I knew.

From that moment i start to learn to be everything. 

Is a long way for me to go.  

For You and for me...i will...  

0006

I'm out of touch with  everything..everything..

Let it be

Tough through out years,

Truly a rainbow has appear,

deep inside somewhere..

Reality has waken me up from the dream

Yet is sweet 

It just a smog will not last forever

Grin is the only I want now.

是

下雨了

还是情绪化了.. 

笑容是伪装,

眼泪是内心.

看透了,

过去是可笑的.

 

误会

我似乎误会我自己，

看到的那一面，是真实的吗？

以往能了解的，也都是误会。

觉悟了，

原来你什么都不是。

                               

upset?

upset with the attitude

upset with the thought

upset with the action

is not a big deal

that is the relationship

cheer up =)

05.07.2010.21:52 mode

miserable

说了再见

天亮了 雨下了 你走了

清楚了 我爱的 遗失了

落叶飘在湖面上睡着了

想要放 放不掉 泪在飘

你看看 你看看 不到

我 假装过去不重要 却发现自己办不到

说了再见 才发现再也见不到

我不能就这样失去你的微笑

口红待在桌脚 而你我找不到

若 角色对调 你说好不好

说了再见 才发现再也见不到

能不能就这样忍着痛泪不掉

说好陪我到老 永恒往哪里找

再次拥抱 一分一秒都好

天亮了 雨下了 你走了

清楚了 我爱的 遗失了

落叶飘在湖面上睡着了

想要放 放不掉 泪在飘

你 看看 你看看 不到

我假装过去不重要 却发现自己办不到

说了再见 才发现再也见不到

我不能就这样失去你的微笑

口 红待在桌脚 而你我找不到

若角色对调 你说好不好

你的笑 你的好 脑海里 一直在绕

我的手 忘不了 你手的温度

心 碎了一地 捡不回 从前的心跳　

伤心过去 我无力逃跑

说再见 才发现再也见不到

能不能就这样忍着痛泪不掉

说好陪 我到老 永恒往哪里找

再次拥抱一分一秒都好

2am, i'm still awake.

Looking around with the blindness

I'm lost,

Lost in the darkness i call my mind

I'm lost,

I'm no sense of feeling.

I'm lost,

The burden still be there.

I'm lost,

Trapped within my mind.

I run and run to find a place

more i run more I see I have no existence

no one could ever free me

unless i remember who the one i wanted to be.

Friendship

The language of friendship is not words but meanings.

Henry David Thoreau

Random

ps: wrong date and time

Shorter hair

Mine noobie Chingu(curi-curi snap^^)

Girls girls girls

Ahzafachoi

looking at it..hungry now

=)

Annyong haseyo! Muahaha.. half year already never update my blog. Not because of busy with the study or school activities...is due to my laziness. ( ps:i have been a lazy bun for a time)

Recently i crashed with Korean idols.I used up my holidays to watch their broadcast. hehe.. and now even start learning korean language! is fun, really =D

Want to introduce anew band~ CNBLUE. Their songs LOVE, LOVE LIGHT, SWEET HOLIDAY and LOVE REVOLUTION nice to hear. Yonghwa(leader, rapper, vocalist) his voice really nice and sexy? =X haha..

IDols..Hmmm.. have Single-edged eyelid guys really look pretty cool^^who?(ps:비밀)

My English really broke,it have been awhile never write in english, rusting or never improve? Haih..

off luu~ chingu