Saturday, September 25, 2010

A day was passed, am still doing nothing.............. 
Now i am running out of time! (yelling)
gastric, migraine, gum pain! all in one now..
how exhausted my body is recently, absent for school 3 days a week (sigh).
some for sure said am study very hard at home! i am not..repeat...i really not.
morning, noon, evening study mood not at all. when comes in midnight, yea~it comes but body doesn't want to work with me.
sigh..sometimes i hate myself being this. putting my studies aside instead doing the wasting time stuffs.
my determination likes play hide and seek with me. no joke. two voices keep playing in my mind. (study now! no! i don want it, after while i will going for it. No, you wont, just wake up for that place and take ur book study! I said i don want it! ) it keep play and play in my minds. 

(slapping) wake up wake up! wake up........wake.....up..........wa....ke.....up




ps: through this i know one day i'm going insane~~~~

dream

A dream was puzzle me for days.
what kind of dream i had?
scary? yes for certain view.
lovely?  yes in my dream.
nervous? yes for a moment.

Thought my eraser had rub the memories apart of that.
Yet he suddenly pop out in my dream. never thought about that, i swear.
anyway just a dream, it never will come true. don't be silly gal( 바보 )

Tuesday, September 21, 2010

Pretending

Feeling pain for not worth trusted.
own problem?
I guess yes.
Review the changes of me recently
My personality getting worse and worst?
I guess yes.
The effection,
i could bare no matter how worse is it, because i am who am i
don't make it seems like the end of the world, everything gonna be alright if YOU try harder. 




persuading and comfort myself  failed. I know there always a contradiction with my words and actions.  
pretending everything will be ok but look back i'm failed to be........... 

Tuesday, September 7, 2010

I...

The moment  You...
Neither let me get close to You nor let me know what is in your mind..
I always be alone.I knew.
From that moment i start to learn to be everything. 
Is a long way for me to go.  
For You and for me...i will...