The Photos

Old photos..there were memories.

The photos remind me. There the happiness where i can found, at the same place i found sadness too. Always hoping everything doesn't change much , hoping everything work as the past. The facts, everyone changed, i changed, the world is changing. 

No matter how hard i hope, it never come true. 

The past we used to talk a lot, smiles a lot, but now we getting far apart. The time changes us...

Trying to smile one to feel better...

A day was passed, am still doing nothing.............. 

Now i am running out of time! (yelling)

gastric, migraine, gum pain! all in one now..

how exhausted my body is recently, absent for school 3 days a week (sigh).

some for sure said am study very hard at home! i am not..repeat...i really not.

morning, noon, evening study mood not at all. when comes in midnight, yea~it comes but body doesn't want to work with me.

sigh..sometimes i hate myself being this. putting my studies aside instead doing the wasting time stuffs.

my determination likes play hide and seek with me. no joke. two voices keep playing in my mind. (study now! no! i don want it, after while i will going for it. No, you wont, just wake up for that place and take ur book study! I said i don want it! ) it keep play and play in my minds. 

(slapping) wake up wake up! wake up........wake.....up..........wa....ke.....up

ps: through this i know one day i'm going insane~~~~

dream

A dream was puzzle me for days.

what kind of dream i had?

scary? yes for certain view.

lovely?  yes in my dream.

nervous? yes for a moment.

Thought my eraser had rub the memories apart of that.

Yet he suddenly pop out in my dream. never thought about that, i swear.

anyway just a dream, it never will come true. don't be silly gal( 바보 )

Pretending

Feeling pain for not worth trusted.

own problem?

I guess yes.

Review the changes of me recently

My personality getting worse and worst?

I guess yes.

The effection,

i could bare no matter how worse is it, because i am who am i

don't make it seems like the end of the world, everything gonna be alright if YOU try harder. 

persuading and comfort myself  failed. I know there always a contradiction with my words and actions.  

pretending everything will be ok but look back i'm failed to be........... 

I...

The moment  You...

Neither let me get close to You nor let me know what is in your mind..

I always be alone.I knew.

From that moment i start to learn to be everything. 

Is a long way for me to go.  

For You and for me...i will...  

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I'm out of touch with  everything..everything..

Let it be

Tough through out years,

Truly a rainbow has appear,

deep inside somewhere..

Reality has waken me up from the dream

Yet is sweet 

It just a smog will not last forever

Grin is the only I want now.

是

下雨了

还是情绪化了.. 

笑容是伪装,

眼泪是内心.

看透了,

过去是可笑的.

 

误会

我似乎误会我自己，

看到的那一面，是真实的吗？

以往能了解的，也都是误会。

觉悟了，

原来你什么都不是。

                               

upset?

upset with the attitude

upset with the thought

upset with the action

is not a big deal

that is the relationship

cheer up =)